Letting Go.

Now that Baby Boy is good and attached and can go without me for short periods of time, I decided he would be okay to head to Kid Care at the gym while I work out a few days a week. The first day I left the kids for just fifteen minutes, being nervous with his allergies, attachment, etc. But when I walked back into the room he and Yaya were giggling and playing with the other kids and having a great time. So the next time, Joel and I went together and decided to leave them for a half an … [Read more...]

Six Months Later.

It's officially been six months since the day Joel and Baby Boy stepped off a plane together. I feel like that's a bench mark of sorts, maybe because it required a post-placement visit from our social worker.So here's some updates and things I've learned now that we've reached this tiny little bench mark: … [Read more...]


Since my college years (I'm leaving out high school because I'm still in the process of trying to permanently block it from my memory), God has blessed me with amazing groups of girlfriends.When I moved to Southern California to attend college, I dyed my hair blonde (to fit in) and promptly became friends with a large group of Asian and Middle Eastern girls -- none of whom were blonde. All these girls were petite as could be and smokin' hot, but I couldn't be jealous of them because they were … [Read more...]

Encouragement from the Other Side.

I've been having one of those weeks where I've been filled with thoughts of, "At this time last year." Maybe it's because of my husband's words about the difficulty in waiting, which were featured last week over at the Lifesong for Orphans blog. Maybe it's because my birthday is this weekend (I'm turning thirty. I don't want to talk about it.) and I'm remembering how sad I was during my birthday last year, when we were just a couple of weeks into our wait to bring home Baby Boy and I felt so … [Read more...]

Life After Adoption.

So this post is one I've been wanting to write for awhile. And I've been thinking about it a lot lately as I was chatting with my friend who leaves this weekend for her first of two Ethiopia trips -- the one where she'll appear in court and meet her daughter (but not the one where she gets to bring her home -- pray for her heart!). She was asking me some questions about attachment and mentioning some worries about meeting her child for the first time. And I was sharing all my wisdom that I've … [Read more...]


I expect some major accolades for blogging this week because I have been super busy...watching Downton Abbey. I just discovered it and life will never be the same. I have crammed so many episodes into a 24 period that I actually had a dream last night that I was friends with the Granthams and called my attorney brother to request his help to ensure that Lady Mary would get the inheritance. When Ella woke up early from her nap yesterday I turned on Dora for her while I watched an episode of … [Read more...]

Ode to Joel.

Without going into too much detail, I will say that Father's Day is always a little difficult for me. I have an estranged relationship with my father and haven't had any verbal contact with him for over six years.Father's Day was always difficult for me growing up, too. When I began doing my own shopping for gifts and cards, it was hard to find a card with just simply "Happy Father's Day" on it. There were usually sentiments on the card that I didn't understand or feel were applicable. I didn't … [Read more...]


I'm starting to get my rhythm with two kids, slowly but surely. It has definitely been an adjustment, and I'm learning that there are some things I just have to let go. Pretty much my house is never clean, so there's that. I've also realized that my life is in need of a lot of simplifying. Baby Boy needs time at home to be loved on and cuddled, time to work on his physical therapy exercises and time to just hang out doing nothing. He is at his best when I'm down on the floor with him, talking … [Read more...]


So an awesome long-distance friend sent me this really encouraging e-mail this week that inspired an idea for a post. She had asked me a few weeks ago about how the transition to two was going, and I let her know that I was feeling a bit overwhelmed at times and feeling guilty because I wasn't doing all the things I used to do with Yaya like library visits and trips to the museum and my house was a wreck and I was tired. She e-mailed me back and gave me a list of all her "bad mom" moments (don't … [Read more...]

Build Her Up.

Is it just me, or does the competition among women drive anyone else crazy? I remember in high school the competition among girls for all those typical things -- popularity, The Boy, the best clothes, etc. I was relived when I went to a super geeky college where everyone was so focused on studies that they could have cared less about popularity, The Boy, the best clothes, etc. Life was good again. Then I had kids. Enter mom-petition. How many times have we moms been victims (or at … [Read more...]